m&m's and Jelly Beans

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I'm almost embarrassed to begin this post because it starts with me admitting that I was in fact sitting at the computer, snacking on m&m's and jelly beans. Jessi and Eli were outside playing, and Jessi came in to tell me that she was still hungry after her snack. I gave her 3 m&m's and 2 jelly beans, and she gladly returned outside for more playing. Only moments passed before Eli came in. He didn't say a word. He immediately went to the table, which is where the bowl of candy is, for his m&m's and jelly beans, then realized that I was holding the bowl. Still not a word, he walked up to me with his hand held out for me to give him his m&m's and jelly beans. As I was giving him his candy, he was quietly saying, just to be sure, "3 m&m's, 2 jelly beans". Then he happily went back outside to play. So, what's the point of this story about m&m's and jelly beans? I was thinking. How do we respond when we see God blessing someone with something we want? Do we expect to be next or do we have a fit because we didn't get it first? Eli didn't come inside complaining because Jessi got candy and he didn't. He came straight in fully expecting to get exactly what she got. Why? Because he knows I love him the same and that I wouldn't give her something and not him. He just knows that, so his response was to walk straight up to me with his hand out. God is no respecter of persons. He loves us all the same, and as His children, we should expect great blessings from Him just because He loves us and we know it. And when we see someone else getting something that we've been believing for, it doesn't mean that God loves them more than He loves us, it means we should rejoice with them because we're that much closer to getting ours! I'm not saying we should live life with our hands held out. We are to live a lifestyle of giving. Giving to glorify God is our purpose! But we also have a Father who loves us and wants to give to us, so we should expect and receive everything He has already paid the price for, everything we will ever need or want. When we hold our hands out to Him, He fills us up so we can pour into the lives of others. Expect nothing less!


Lena's Dedication

Thursday, October 29, 2009

We are so thankful for the gift God has given us with our 3 children.  We are dedicating our lives to raise them to know Jesus and know the blood covenant that we have through Him, and providing the best possible opportunities in life for them.  Here are some pictures of our Lena being dedicated by our Pastor, the best Pastor there is!  We are so thankful for him and for our church family.  Our Pastor has dedicated all three of our children.


Roll Tide Roll!

This is our game day attire, and also what the kids wore to Hallelujah Night (our fall festival).  They had so much fun and I think they would wear these outfits every single day if I let them.  Eli is always asking to wear his football jersey.  I really wanted a cheerleader outfit for Lena but I could find nothing smaller than 2t.  However, I absolutely love this little jersey I found at Bama Fever!  I ordered the houndstooth leg warmers from Etsy at Crawler Covers & More and I think it turned out to be too cute!


Lena's Birth

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Lena's birth was so much different than Jessi's or Eli's. Let me start by recapping their birth stories as briefly as possible so that it will be easier to understand why I made some of the decisions that I made with Lena. First, I want to talk about what I believe childbirth SHOULD be like. When I was pregnant with Jessi, someone gave me a book called Supernatural Childbirth by Jackie Mize. This book opened my eyes to childbirth in a way that I should have already known but had never thought of before. Jesus paid the price for the fall of man that caused the earth to be cursed, so I believe I am completely delivered from every curse including pain during childbirth. I do not believe, however, that if there is pain when you get to that point that you should attempt to bear it with all the wonderful pain medicine that is so readily available these days. I have nothing to prove. I have always said that if I have pain, I will gladly take something for it. But God is so good! I have experienced childbirth without pain, and it is a wonderful experience to say the least!

With Jessi, my water broke on its own 4 days after her due date at 5pm. Well, actually, it started leaking at 5pm. It actually broke as I walked through the doors of the emergency room around 7pm. I think I was about 3-4 cm dilated when we got there, and at 10pm I was still at 4cm. But then the contractions got way intense, still with no pain, and at 10:30 I was complete and ready to push. Jessi was born at exactly 12midnight which made her birthday January 20, 2003. I did not stretch when she came out, so I did have some tearing, and yes, that part hurt, but it was only for a few seconds. She was 7lbs 13oz 21in. None of my contractions were painful, therefore I did not have any meds during Jessi's birth. It was fast and wonderful, and I give God ALL the glory for it. I could never have done that on my own.

With Eli, he was 6 days early. I had contractions with him for weeks before delivery, and 6 days before he was due, I went in for my checkup and was 5cm dilated already. My doctor was worried about me not making it to the hospital in time if he sent me home, so he wanted to induce. I did not want to induce at all, but I understood that it would not be wise to risk having my baby at home, so I decided to let him break my water instead. He broke my water at 6pm and I was ready to push around 8:30. Eli was born just after 10pm on June 27, 2005 at a whopping 9lbs 12oz 21in. Yes, I did tear with him and that was, again, the only pain I experienced. Glory be to God!

With Lena, I was 8 miserable days late. I thought she would never come. My doctor was going out of town the day after her due date, so he stripped my membranes earlier that week to try and get things going. I was already 3 1/2 cm dilated & 30% effaced, so we just knew that would do the trick. Well, my due date came and I'm still pregnant, so I called my doctor and we decided to go ahead and break my water so he could deliver before he left. Since everything went so well with Eli, I had no problem with this. However, when we got to the hospital and he checked me, I had not progressed AT ALL. So, instead of risking complications, we decided to go home and wait it out. Well, I guess Lena wanted only him to deliver because she actually waited for him to get back! Her due date was on a Thursday, and he didn't get back until the following Friday! Longest week of my life. I preregistered and went in for him to break my water on Friday morning. He was not on call but said he would definitely come over for delivery (even though I know he was totally swamped with patients from being gone for a week). My doctor is one in a million! I am so thankful for him! One of the other doctors actually came in to break my water at 7:30am. I was still 3-4cm but I was 60% effaced at this point so we were good to go. At 9:30am, still the same. At 11:30am, still the same. At this point they wanted to start a small dose of pitocin to help things progress. I did not want to do this because I knew my contractions would be different because of it, but I also did not want to risk too much time going by since my water was broken and then having to have a c-section. So I let them start a small dose of pitocin. My contractions increased in intensity and were painful, but things were moving along, slowly. At 1:30 I was dilated 6-7cm and very discouraged. Things had never been this slow for me and the pain was getting to me. I was weighing my options of pain meds at this point. I knew I could go ahead and do this if it wasn't going to be long, but I had no idea how much longer it was going to be and I KNEW I couldn't handle this for hours longer. At around 2pm I remember things getting EXTREMELY intense to the point that I couldn't really think a complete thought without another crazy hard contraction coming on, so I asked the nurse to check me again. I was fully effaced and 8cm. Showtime. I knew it was time to start really pushing because I was pushing anyway without any control over it. They started to scurry around getting the spotlight on and tables out and such. I heard them call for my doctor who was not in the building. At 2:20 he came running in (literally) and at I started to push. Lena was born at 2:29pm on July 24, 2009. She was 8lbs 6oz 20 1/2 in. The best part? NO TEARING! NO STITCHES! All I could say over and over was Thank you Jesus, Thank you Jesus! My pushing time with her was 9 minutes! I pushed for over an hour and almost 2 with the others! I still don't really know why everything else went the way it did, but I know that only 9 minutes of pushing and no tearing made up for it bigtime! I felt as good as new. As soon as I was able to nurse her, which was as soon as they cleaned her up and gave her to me, I took a bath and got dressed, fixed my hair, I felt great.

Jason was amazing. Not just for Lena's birth, but for all of them. He has always gotten me through when I was tired and couldn't think about what to do. He told me when to breath, when to push, when to relax, everything. He never left my side for a minute, and I thank God every single day for him. He is the best of the best in my opinion!

Tracy, Jason's sister, was my nurse. She has always been on one side of me, while Jason was on the other. They were my greatest help during the pushing part. Tracy let me have one hand, and Jason the other. We all felt sore the day after having a baby! I am so thankful for her.

Jessi and Eli were just outside the room toward the end and could hardly wait to come in and meet their new baby sister. I could hear them the whole time. They were very excited. I could hear Jessi giggling and Eli jumping all around, it made me laugh. They were so sweet with her.

Jessi was very emotional for some reason. She had been that way during my pregnancy, but this day it was really bad. She cried alot, but we understood that this was a huge transition for her too. We had to give her some extra tlc during that time, but she is doing much better now.

Eli is awesome about the whole thing. He thinks everything is just great and is super happy. He gets a little too excited at times, but I think that's just his way of dealing with everything too.             

Overall, it has been a very big transition for all of us, but an amazing gift for our family. We are all so in love with her!



I've decided to take up knitting again. I started learning how to knit a few years ago and just never stuck with it. I really want to do this for some reason, so here I go again! I've got most of the basics down, but that's about it at this point. I'll let you know how it goes!


Starting Today

As a mother of 3, I am starting to realize how important it is to write things down. There is so much going on all at once, that it is nearly impossible to remember most things. So, starting today, I will blog the things that matter to me, whether it's something I want to remember forever, or just something that's going on with me at the moment. Maybe you will find my life interesting, maybe not, but you are welcome here, and I hope you will find encouragement along the way.

Thanks for reading!


Lena's Nursery

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I have the most amazing friends in the world, and I do not deserve them, but I am more thankful for them than they will ever know! They kicked me out of the house on Memorial Day weekend so they could decorate Lena's room. Also, it was previouly Eli's room, which was blue, and they would not let me lift a finger to it, not even to pick out the paint! They had some ideas of what I wanted, and I reluctantly agreed to this because I knew that they know me very well and could make decisions for me that, at this point in my pregnancy, I could not make. I can be very indecisive at times, but never more than when I am pregnant! They did such a beautiful job, and it is more lovely than I thought it could ever be. See for yourself!


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